These past years I struggled to write as much as I wanted and needed. The words didn't flow like it used to, there was too much resistance and not enough drive. I loathed how I sounded, and didn't felt like anything I wanted to share was valid or interesting enough. As of now, I have 99 unpublished entries, I do not plan to publish them in the future but I read them from time to time. They remind me of my past sorrows and victories. It's late at night, and the thunderstorm is raging outside the house. The...

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I woke up with a rock on top of my chest. Or at least, that's what it felt like. Looking back, 2018 has been the most difficult year for me so far. Plenty of fear, and not much peace, plenty of sorrow, and not much joy, plenty of heartbreaks and not much taste of success. In the last quarter of 2018, I was desperate to excuse myself from the pity party I was about to invite myself in. And so, I tried. On the day of my 24th birthday, I got hired for a job in Manila, a...

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I held my camera with my right hand while I lifted my left hand in praise. I struggled looking through the view finder as water started to fill my eyes again. A young man was submerged in water and made a public declaration of faith. The old is gone and the new has come. I pressed the shutter and then the tears fell. I have encountered the love of Christ, and continue to experience it day by day; and witnessing others encounter this same love brings me to tears. I've been such a cry baby. I pray to...

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I can see the hesitance in Dianna's eyes as Ate Erica puts blush on her cheeks. She shares that she is not like her sister Dianne, who is far more familiar with the experience of having her photos taken. But nonetheless, she showed up on a sunny afternoon wearing a red top and a denim skirt, along with all the confidence she mustered. Both were oblivious to the fact that this photo shoot was for their surprise 18th birthday party. I've known these young ladies since they were kids. And to be honest, it was only after they...

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According to the most reliable weather app ever, Accuweather, I would have the enjoyment of walking around SBFZ without a drop of rain from 3 PM to 4PM. So, I packed my camera, my laptop, put on my boots and set off for an afternoon stroll. The wind blew and gave me chills as I started to walk. There aren't many people out on the streets, they're missing out on this beautiful hour. I had Noah Gundersen’s Saints and Liars album on loop, the perfect companion for this kind of weather. His music is hot water to that...

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