Last night probably was one of the saddest & hardest nights i and my family went through. My auntie is sick with cancer and the doctor said she only had six months to live, November is the sixth month.

It is so painful for us to see her suffer, yet peace & understanding exudes from within her. No matter what happens she is ready, the case is we the ones who love her aren't really that much prepared. See here my auntie is like a second Mama to me. I grew up eating food she cooked, grew up laughing at her jokes, and grew up loving every bit of her character. She is one humble woman , who lives simply and is not much concerned about appearance and other material things. The only thing that she is concerned about is her family and the people she serves. She loves the Lord and right now even in this moment of pain you can see her Faith.

Last night , she refused to go through some medical procedures to lessen the pain she is going through. The thing is, it would not extend her life but will only make it less painful. Even though we all wanted to have her go through the procedure she doesn't want to do it anymore. So basically last night some friends and family went to visit her at the hospital, my Dad told me there were tears & laughter. Dad said that it was my auntie who encouraged them in spite of her condition. My parents came home and told me and my brothers what my Auntie is going through as of the moment, Auntie said she is tired already. And the tears started to roll down uncontrollably. I cannot imagine how it would be to lose someone, i am not ready for that. Her children & husband needs her. We need her. But at the same time we couldn't be selfish.

I cried and cried to the Lord. I spoke to Him begging for Him to move miraculously in her life, i remember all the scriptures and stories i read from the bible, when Jesus would heal someone. When Jesus said He is willing and that He was moved with compassion and he healed the sick. I remember when Jesus said we can ask anything in His name. I remember them and they speak of faith & hope that even at the last moment my God is powerful to turn the whole situation around. And i remember stories of those who survived cancer, i remember how impossible it was for the others but still they are alive today.

Today my brother, sister and i went to the hospital to visit. We saw her, lying in her bed, little and skinny. We held her hands and she embraced us one by one. We all couldn't help but cry, it became so unbearable my brother just walked away. I thought i would be losing the hope i have the moment i see her there. But as i sat there and prayed to my God, i have never been this hopeful and sure that the Lord will surely do a miracle for her.

Although many wants us to be prepared for whatever happens i could not let my hope die down. Hope is within me, begging for me to keep on hoping and to keep believing for a miracle.

And most of all, I praise the Lord for the life He has blessed my auntie with. I praise the Lord because He is faithful & powerful! I praise the Lord for He is who He is! I praise the Lord for He has planted faith & hope in my heart.

*My auntie is at the hospital right now. Please lift her up in her prayer her name is Lolit. God bless you!