I do not understand why my classmates won't turn off the air conditioning unit inside the room, it's obvious that everyone else is shaking in the cold. I do not utter a word of protest, nor do i make a move to turn off the thing. I let it pass, since everyone seems to be enjoying trembling in the cold except for me.

I looked out the window and i see a blanket of warmth rest upon the buildings, i see the brightness of the Sun, and how i love beholding it's beauty. Ever since i left school, i spent way too many times outdoors, and that gave me a tan that makes me very Filipina. I use to have a whiter complexion , and people find it hard to believe that i am that girl who used to be slim & white. Now i'm fat & tan. And it's kinda okay with me...

I braved the heat of the Sun for i loved it. I refused to use umbrellas, i walked even at the hottest time of the day,i hiked, i ran and biked and the heat doesn't bother me. It makes me feel alive. And so as i sit  silently inside the room, i think of the outdoors. I cannot be confined in this room, i cannot stay just right here. I yearn to walk & run, to skate & bike. There's just so much i can do with my life, if i were outside of this cold box.

And so my imagination is running again, i think of my many what if's

What if finally, i was able to buy that bike i saw on the shop? I see myself riding it, going up hills & down hills into Forest View, the most challenging route i've ever taken so far. I remember how It consumed all of my energy and gave me the scare of my life time, as i was going down so fast and my saddle started moving loosely, but by God's amazing grace i am alive and so i can blog.

What if i got the money to buy that Chinook longboard? It would be fun not having to borrow a board from my friend, i could ride whenever i want and finally improve my skating skills. And then i remembered my first bloody bail, and i have a scar on my left knee to remind me of that unfortunate day when i bailed and thought i was still in perfect condition, but as i kept skating i felt something was dripping from my knees and to my surprise it was blood.

What if i was able to master swimming? It might not be a good idea, since i might spend all my days in the pool. I'm doing a lot of physical activities right now, maybe i should just let this one go. What if i go hike at Mt. Pinatubo? Wow, that would be so much fun, i can finally witness it's beauty.

i continue to let my imagination go, and think of a hundred things i could do if i were outside. But i snap back to reality and know that i am a student, and i am in this room. If i really wanna excel in my academics, i gotta enjoy studying. And i've been attentive in classes as much as i can, but there are times when i really can't...

I need to be responsible, adventure will always be waiting for me, the outdoors will always be there when i finish what i started. In the meantime, i will tremble in this room and listen to what my professor has to say...