"You give & Take away, You Give & take away, but my heart would choose to say Blessed be Your name."

Do you know this famous Christian song? It's been my all time favorite, i have sung this song to the Lord with all my heart in tears, joy, sorrow and triumph. But just last sunday, though we weren't singing this song, i was speaking to the Lord while we were worshiping, i told Him that i know He can take all of it away from me, that i cannot hold on to my compassion for people, i cannot hold on to my mission, or my art, or my passion , or just any other talent, and character that He has given me. One day i can wake up and despise people, one day i can wake up and no longer desire to go on mission, i can wake up and decide i do not want any more adventures, and one day i can wake up and see that i lost my hands.

I cannot hold on to the gifts, but i can use them for His glory, but they should never ever take away my focus from my God. I cannot trust myself, i cannot be sure that i'll want to do art for the rest of my life, i cannot be sure that i'll want to proclaim the good news till the end of time although i know i want to. He can just take all the desires away if He wants to.

Confession: I have boasted about my passion.

The Lord has been so good, he is exposing myself to me so that i may know that i still need change and i still need to meditate on His word day & night, and to delight in Him always.